Don't worry, I didn't tell you these things with the intention of burdening you. [It's the complete opposite, honestly.] It's just to let you know where I'm coming from. I'll find a way to deal. [Although what they have initially started as a way for him to deal with it, it's becoming something else entirely for him.
When Yuki explains himself and about the key, Yokozawa detects something more than what was said. It could just be from them lying like this, with their bodies pressed against one another and both displaying a level of vulnerability that they wouldn't in front of others. There's more to the truth, but experience has taught Yokozawa to not push for it. There are enough similarities between them for him to know that he wouldn't want to be pressed for answers either. And Yuki looks like he has an anvil over him (plus the cat). From what he can tell at least, neither of them want this to end...maybe for more similar reasons than he initially thought.]
...honestly, I would be incredibly pissed off my mind if I used the key and walked in on you and some woman in bed together. Or anyone. [His reaction would have been laughably predictable too. Jealously and love aren't the same but...]
For you as a romance novelist and me as the older man, we're both pretty bad in the feelings department. [There, he said it. It's no secret that there are feelings and by saying that, he's admitting that it's there without actually saying that it's there. If Yuki is quick to deny this then Yokozawa would negate it with what he just said about the key and seeing no one else. (He would've pulled the same thing if it was the other way around.)]
We both got shit to figure out but there are some things I can admit for sure. [He slides both his arms over Yuki's shoulders, letting it sit there as if to quietly ask for permission if he could hold him tighter.] I don't want us to stop.
[He keeps his gaze towards the ceiling though, knowing that looking at Yuki would keep his words from sounding firm and calm.]
When we're together, I don't see him anymore. Just you.
[His mind is still open to the idea that this could be one sided in the long run, despite the subtle evidence pointing to the contrary. But like he said earlier, he'll deal...somehow.]
I'M SUCH A CHEESE BALL, I'M SORRYYY
When Yuki explains himself and about the key, Yokozawa detects something more than what was said. It could just be from them lying like this, with their bodies pressed against one another and both displaying a level of vulnerability that they wouldn't in front of others. There's more to the truth, but experience has taught Yokozawa to not push for it. There are enough similarities between them for him to know that he wouldn't want to be pressed for answers either. And Yuki looks like he has an anvil over him (plus the cat). From what he can tell at least, neither of them want this to end...maybe for more similar reasons than he initially thought.]
...honestly, I would be incredibly pissed off my mind if I used the key and walked in on you and some woman in bed together. Or anyone. [His reaction would have been laughably predictable too. Jealously and love aren't the same but...]
For you as a romance novelist and me as the older man, we're both pretty bad in the feelings department. [There, he said it. It's no secret that there are feelings and by saying that, he's admitting that it's there without actually saying that it's there. If Yuki is quick to deny this then Yokozawa would negate it with what he just said about the key and seeing no one else. (He would've pulled the same thing if it was the other way around.)]
We both got shit to figure out but there are some things I can admit for sure. [He slides both his arms over Yuki's shoulders, letting it sit there as if to quietly ask for permission if he could hold him tighter.] I don't want us to stop.
[He keeps his gaze towards the ceiling though, knowing that looking at Yuki would keep his words from sounding firm and calm.]
When we're together, I don't see him anymore. Just you.
[His mind is still open to the idea that this could be one sided in the long run, despite the subtle evidence pointing to the contrary. But like he said earlier, he'll deal...somehow.]