She watches him with large eyes, dark in the dim light and, for the first time, those garnet depths aren't conflicted. She's still cold though not as cold as she was but that's not why she finally feels calm inside. She's felt so trapped since Cloud left, suddenly waking up to realize just how small and caught in time their town is and how nothing ever changes, it just eventually disappears. Her safe world still feels safe but it's starting to feel stifling too and she isn't sure how to escape the way Cloud and the other boys did. She isn't sure she's brave enough. She's not even sure that she wants to, not just yet because in her heart she knows she's still just a kid and she's not quite ready to give that entirely up yet even if she's starting to move toward it. She's been trapped, waiting for something to change and yet not wanting anything to just yet. The soldiers from Shinra are change and yet not the one she had prepared herself for and for the first time, she's finally willing to just let them be who they are instead of who they aren't and - she thinks she likes Clyde.
Not like like of course because that's silly but she likes him best out of them all probably simply because he seems the most accessible. She likes Zack too but he's so over the top sometimes that she wonders how much of it's an act and how much of it's real. It doesn't make her not like him but it does wear her out a little trying to figure it out. Now that she's finally quieted down enough to notice it, Clyde's actually surprisingly comforting because he's just here and so it's okay for her to just be here too without having to do anything extra to be impressive. He's kind of the way she's imagined SOLDIERs to be in fact because, in her mind, SOLDIER are heroes and heroes don't get to be heroes taking care of rusted out reactors and company secrets. Heroes are heroes because they save people. Clyde's saved her at least twice and even got himself hurt while doing it. To her, that makes him a hero but even at fifteen she's aware that maybe that's a naive way to think and certainly not something you tell anyone else, especially the guy doing it. So instead she curls just a little bit more around him, until she's finally tucked in close and wishes she could do more for him because so far he's been doing most everything for her and that's really not fair. Just because she wants to be rescued doesn't mean she wants to not be part of things too. So without moving her head from his shoulder, she offers up her hands in his oversized gloves.
"You can have them back. My hands are warmer now and it's not fair for yours to be cold. I'm sorry I'm not doing more to help. You're taking care of me and I can't think of what to do to take care of you to. I'll make it up to you though. I'll find a way."
admittedly, it worked even better than I'd intended but I ain't complainin'
Not like like of course because that's silly but she likes him best out of them all probably simply because he seems the most accessible. She likes Zack too but he's so over the top sometimes that she wonders how much of it's an act and how much of it's real. It doesn't make her not like him but it does wear her out a little trying to figure it out. Now that she's finally quieted down enough to notice it, Clyde's actually surprisingly comforting because he's just here and so it's okay for her to just be here too without having to do anything extra to be impressive. He's kind of the way she's imagined SOLDIERs to be in fact because, in her mind, SOLDIER are heroes and heroes don't get to be heroes taking care of rusted out reactors and company secrets. Heroes are heroes because they save people. Clyde's saved her at least twice and even got himself hurt while doing it. To her, that makes him a hero but even at fifteen she's aware that maybe that's a naive way to think and certainly not something you tell anyone else, especially the guy doing it. So instead she curls just a little bit more around him, until she's finally tucked in close and wishes she could do more for him because so far he's been doing most everything for her and that's really not fair. Just because she wants to be rescued doesn't mean she wants to not be part of things too. So without moving her head from his shoulder, she offers up her hands in his oversized gloves.
"You can have them back. My hands are warmer now and it's not fair for yours to be cold. I'm sorry I'm not doing more to help. You're taking care of me and I can't think of what to do to take care of you to. I'll make it up to you though. I'll find a way."