I don't want to fake it. ((She jerks her arm out of his grasp, staring up at him with equal parts seriousness and anger.)) I don't want to fake anything anymore. I hate how superficial everything is here. It makes me want to claw my skin off.
((Not after last year. Not after training and interviewing and killing with a mask pulled tight over her face. She was deceptive - she remembers that - but now it's painful to be who she isn't. It brings back memories. She barely knows how to be herself in this world, let alone how to be someone else. Of all the things she can do, she can't do that.
It's hard to explain that to someone. It's especially hard to explain it to Finnick - not because she's starstruck or anything, but because she hasn't talked to anyone about her games, let alone someone else who's experienced one of their own. She just shakes her head, expression more sullen than angry now.)) Seeing you people is fucking terrifying.
((The words aren't right, they aren't what she feels - but they work for now.))
thank you! your finnick is amazing too - i wouldn't have been able to tell you're voicetesting <3
((Not after last year. Not after training and interviewing and killing with a mask pulled tight over her face. She was deceptive - she remembers that - but now it's painful to be who she isn't. It brings back memories. She barely knows how to be herself in this world, let alone how to be someone else. Of all the things she can do, she can't do that.
It's hard to explain that to someone. It's especially hard to explain it to Finnick - not because she's starstruck or anything, but because she hasn't talked to anyone about her games, let alone someone else who's experienced one of their own. She just shakes her head, expression more sullen than angry now.)) Seeing you people is fucking terrifying.
((The words aren't right, they aren't what she feels - but they work for now.))