[She winces, keeping a hold of his hand and closing her eyes. Shit. She should have kept her mouth shut.] Shit--see--this always happens.

I didn't want--I wanted to tell you when I was sober and you were sober and I could explain why it's not a big deal and why he'd be happy I found someone out here while I'm alone and maybe you'd want to talk to him and--[Any confidence just seems to wilt away and she lets go of his hand]

Sorry. I should be upfront.