[She's angry, suddenly, fingers clamping hard around Keith's. And there are words rushing out, ones she usually keeps safely stamped down. But he's listening and asking and that's enough.]
People are selfish. They're mean and small and petty, and all they want is to keep everyone at their level. Normal. Failing. You just - You have no idea how much you are an exception, not the rule, and I have to deal with that every day.
[And in case he's going to argue, she pushes on.]
Do you know how many production jobs there are at this level? Maybe a dozen. Do you know how many are held by women? One.One in twenty-seven years. That's not because of a lack of talent.
You want me to be happy? Fine. Being the best at my job and staying there. Making the biggest, flashiest "SCREW YOU" show I can. So all the jackasses can see they're wrong, and they watch anyway. That's what makes me happy.
[And... maybe that's finally going to get through. Why she won't just stay at home and rest. It's too much like being told to sit down, be quiet, and she has heard that too damn much.
Sometimes you fight so long you don't know when it's okay to stop.]
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[She's angry, suddenly, fingers clamping hard around Keith's. And there are words rushing out, ones she usually keeps safely stamped down. But he's listening and asking and that's enough.]
People are selfish. They're mean and small and petty, and all they want is to keep everyone at their level. Normal. Failing. You just - You have no idea how much you are an exception, not the rule, and I have to deal with that every day.
[And in case he's going to argue, she pushes on.]
Do you know how many production jobs there are at this level? Maybe a dozen. Do you know how many are held by women? One. One in twenty-seven years. That's not because of a lack of talent.
You want me to be happy? Fine. Being the best at my job and staying there. Making the biggest, flashiest "SCREW YOU" show I can. So all the jackasses can see they're wrong, and they watch anyway. That's what makes me happy.
[And... maybe that's finally going to get through. Why she won't just stay at home and rest. It's too much like being told to sit down, be quiet, and she has heard that too damn much.
Sometimes you fight so long you don't know when it's okay to stop.]