[Sherlock doesn't interrupt Joan as she speaks. Partially, because he's still exhausted from that whole interrogation fiasco and partially because, in his own way, he cares to hear what she has to say about everything. It helps him understand a little more the bits and pieces that don't come as naturally to him. The emotions behind it coming from the other side, specifically. He has a hard enough time considering the emotional response he'd had over the ordeal.]
I'm sorry.
[An apology may be a good way to start, but he doesn't want to leave it at empty words. He really is sorry that what he'd done had made such a devastating impact on her life, but he's not sorry at all for the decision he'd made. He'd do it over again in a heartbeat, because he knows that he's a selfish person and all altruisism is truly just selfishness in the mask of helping someone else.
No, he can't face the thought of Joan dying because of his inaction, so he faked his death. He'd offered up not only his career, but her grief as the sacrifice to save a few lives.]
But, everything I did. It was necessary. [And, he won't offer up any excuses.]
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I'm sorry.
[An apology may be a good way to start, but he doesn't want to leave it at empty words. He really is sorry that what he'd done had made such a devastating impact on her life, but he's not sorry at all for the decision he'd made. He'd do it over again in a heartbeat, because he knows that he's a selfish person and all altruisism is truly just selfishness in the mask of helping someone else.
No, he can't face the thought of Joan dying because of his inaction, so he faked his death. He'd offered up not only his career, but her grief as the sacrifice to save a few lives.]
But, everything I did. It was necessary. [And, he won't offer up any excuses.]