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Every Repost is a Repost Repost ([personal profile] repost) wrote in [community profile] bakerstreet2017-03-28 10:29 pm

Baggage


THE sexual baggage MEME


The media paints a beautiful picture of sex as the most important, most important thing in life. There could be a glimmer of truth in that; sex can be good, wonderful even. But not everyone is fortunate enough to have the best relationship with physical intimacy. You can relate, can't you? Sex is something you're not always so sure about. It's not because of the person you're with, not really, but the act itself brings up unfortunate baggage. There's parts of your body or old injuries you're not too proud of or don't want to think about. You don't like people touching you. You've always been taught that sex was dirty, unclean. In your past, events or traumas occurred that make you less than thrilled to present any kind of vulnerability. Whatever the case may be, sexual intimacy opens a whole Pandora's Box for you.

But you're with someone, someone you may even love, and you want to be with them. You want to try and do this for them and, in the end, for yourself. Of course, it will be easier said than done, and you'll need the full cooperation of that partner. Or maybe you are that partner, trying to understand how to make your lover comfortable. Whatever the case, you may have your work cut out for you - yet if you're truly willing to understand each other, the results can be more than worth it. If they're not? That's all right, too. Everyone has to move at their own pace.

HOW TO PLAY
  • Comment with your character and preferences.
  • Mention if your character is the person with the hangups or their hopefully supportive lover.
  • If they're the former, feel free to mention what your character's issues may be.
  • Needless to say, this meme may be triggering.

  • Also include if you'd prefer this attempt to fail, succeed, or either.
  • Reply to others.
brokencode: (inquiry noodles)

Angel | Borderlands | OTA

[personal profile] brokencode 2017-03-29 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
[The one with issues, namely inexperience and her father's blinders.]
misskringle: (2)

Kristen Kringle l Gotham

[personal profile] misskringle 2017-03-29 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
(M/F and with baggage due to in canon abusive prior relationship)
desecrated: ([relapse] hazy)

Sherlock Holmes || Sherlock BBC || m/m

[personal profile] desecrated 2017-03-29 05:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[[ooc: has had a very bad relationship in early university, and has had prior experience with torture. The really hardcore kinky stuff is going to be triggering, even if he's willing to experiment. There's also scars he's embarrassed over, so ... take caution.]]
midship: (Default)

Horatio Hornblower | Hornblower Saga

[personal profile] midship 2017-03-29 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
betteralready: (Default)

/crashlands into this here meme

[personal profile] betteralready 2017-03-30 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
[This can go so many ways which way do you want it to go]
midship: (Default)

/drags into blanketburrito

[personal profile] midship 2017-03-30 12:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[if you're feeling something for Archie go for it but my dumb impulses would be gettin' it on in Ferrol 2.0 with mutual freaking out/comforting ooooor sort of '???' in space navy]
jollyboat: (Default)

/attempts Ferrol 2.0 lmk if this works

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-03-30 04:46 pm (UTC)(link)
The kisses have been fairly frequent things since returning back to prison. The touches have come slowly; careful caresses, shifts of bodies against one another.

The passion, frankly, has had its time to build. The passion is getting them both a little bit carried away, tonight.

For all it's just a touch lined with something desperate, it honestly is a testament to his trust in Horatio that he only pulls back slightly and doesn't try to shove him away completely.

It means he trust him to actually stop, when Archie gasps out a soft, "Wait--"

He doesn't let go, entirely, even then. He lets one hand rest a little unsteadily on Horatio's shoulder as he fights to shove the panic into a corner.

"Just-- just give me a second."
whisted: ([t] hm transport caroline)

I love??

[personal profile] whisted 2017-03-30 05:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Usually, they behave themselves. Usually, the kissing ends when things start to feel too close to overwhelming; when they can both clamp down and breathe hard and relax toward sleep. It's always enough. It always has Horatio's heart thudding with genuine elation while they settle back down.

Getting overwhelmed is new. Getting to the point of actually touching--of needing in a different way--is thrilling and terrifying all on its own.

And then Archie asks him to wait.

Guilt floods in with barely a heartbeat. His hands are pulled back almost before the word is finished, breath gulped unhappily. He's pushed too far. He's gone beyond what he should. He's turned into--

Squeezing his eyes shut helps bring him back into himself. "--sorry. Sorry, Archie."
jollyboat: (how to make him stay)

ohgood

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-03-30 07:43 pm (UTC)(link)
"'s-- 's all right."

And, despite the tremble in his voice, it does seem to be. He's not shutting down. He's just catching his breath.

"I just-- It's hard, in the dark."

Easier to forget who, exactly, he's with.
whisted: ([t] beat to quarters)

I cry but I love ; ;

[personal profile] whisted 2017-03-30 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
"--oh."

Honest has always been easy between them, before. Honest is oddly easier now that they've fought their way through to each other again. His fingers had been honest--too honest--the way their lips had learned to be honest.

And Archie's being honest now. It's important to focus on the fact that Archie isn't shoving him off, isn't scrambling away. Archie's breathing. Archie's panic looks, as much as he can see in the semi-darkness, more distant than the moment at hand.

Horatio folds his own arms across his own gut all the same, holding himself back as firmly as he knows how.

"We don't-- If it's too much, Archie, we can-- not."
jollyboat: (he is the sun)

same tho ; ;

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-03-30 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
"I-- want to, though."

There's something a little plaintive to his voice as he says it. There's certainly some self-directed frustration on his face, as well. His fingers squeeze just a little at Horatio's arm, assuringly.

"I w-want to, with you."
whisted: ([t] hms justinian)

/offers blanket for burrito

[personal profile] whisted 2017-03-31 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
It would be such a relief to smooth Archie's cheek. It would be amazingly reassuring to smooth at Archie's hair.

He can't pull back from himself, although his eyes do hesitantly seek Archie's again.

"...are... are-- you sure?"
jollyboat: (you are sunlight)

/tucks us both in the blanket

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-03-31 03:12 am (UTC)(link)
His other hand lifts tentatively, ghosting briefly over Horatio's cheek as he nods.

"'m sure. Honest, Horatio."

He wants. It's such a terrifying and freeing thing, all at once.
whisted: ([t] hms retribution)

/foreverrr

[personal profile] whisted 2017-03-31 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
This gentle assurance helps. This certainty in Archie's entire being--despite the panic, despite the breathlessness--seems infinitely genuine.

"...o-okay."

His arms start to untangle just slightly from around his own waist. It still feels impossible to actually reach out and touch the other young man again.
jollyboat: (will leave you)

<3333

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-01 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
"Y-yeah. It-- is."

Or it's getting to be, at least. His hand drifts down Horatio's arm to catch lightly at the other young man's hand and start to guide it towards his torso again.

"Just-- maybe y'could-- talk a bit, or something? So I-- really know it's you?"

The flush is more from embarrassment and frustration, but he's a little proud of himself for asking, regardless.
whisted: ([t] lieutenant bush)

<3!!

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-01 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
"--talk?"

His fingers twitch before settling carefully against Archie again. His breath comes uncomfortably shallow for a moment.

"What-- What should I-- say?"
jollyboat: (their faith)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-01 03:47 pm (UTC)(link)
"I-- dunno," he admits, a little ruefully.

"Just-- anything. What y'r thinking, maybe? Something-- something really-- you."

Something that couldn't possibly be the ghost still in the room with them.
whisted: ([t] flying colours)

...lmk if this needs changing; i can't remember if this was a thread or a dream I had :|a

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-01 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
His fingers flex and settle, a helpless gesture like a shrug as his breath puffs out of his chest.

"I'm just-- thinking about you, Archie."

That's a start, at any rate. That's worth trying while the cell stays dark enough to feel half-safe.

"About... about you, here and-- now, but... but also about you-- leaning on the rail of the Indy. The way you-- smile down at your Shakespeare and-- and laugh when Oldroyd remembers some-- scrap of it wrong."
Edited 2017-04-02 00:03 (UTC)
jollyboat: (he is the sun)

i have no memory of this place but it's adorable i'm keeping it

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-03 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
His hand stays resting comfortably atop Horatio's for a few moments; thumb brushing unconsciously against the back of Horatio's hand. He's clearly focusing on the other young man as he speaks; listening to probably absorb both the words and the simple fact it's Horatio.

When that feels a little more real, he'll let his hand finally set free the other young man's to drift back up to Horatio's shoulder and back again.

"I'd forgotten about that," he murmurs softly, "Did y'-- think of me often, then?"
whisted: ([t] hms justinian)

yey .w.

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-05 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
The delicate brush of Archie's fingers sets Horatio's heart pounding all over again. A deep breath helps keep his voice a touch steadier.

"...I did. And I never quite stopped-- turning about. Like you might just-- be there standing next to me."

But that's not what this moment is about. That's an entirely different conversation.

"I... I dreamed about you. Now and then."
jollyboat: (destiny has always been greater)

<3

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-05 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh?"

There's the carefullest of shifts to bump his nose against Horatio's as his fingers continue to brush lightly against the other young man.

"Like-- what?"
whisted: ([t] flying colours)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-05 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
"It's--"

It's embarrassing. It's the sort of thing that's meant to feel shameful.

It's hard to actually feel properly ashamed when they're alone.

Horatio's smile is a hesitant, flitting thing. He can't rid himself of the flush spreading across his cheeks and down his neck, but he can keep talking.

"It was mostly-- nothing in particular. Just-- bits and pieces of-- time together. And then-- sometimes things I'd-- wished we could do. Times I'd wished you'd been with us. Some--" His breath comes faintly shakier. "--sometimes I'd... dream about something like-- this. Being... being close."
jollyboat: (he is the sun)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-06 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
That blush feels nice. It has Archie bumping his nose against Horatio's again.

(This feels much safer. That's why it's easier to say what he does next.)

"--Show me, maybe?"
whisted: ([t] hms indefatigable)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-06 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
Well. There's the rest of his cheeks gone scarlet, tongue briefly tied in an incredibly delightful way.

"O-- Okay."

His fingers are incredibly careful as they find their way back to Archie's hips. His nose brushes against Archie's more deliberately, lips ghosting in close against the other young man's.

"There's... A lot of it was..."
jollyboat: (and glow)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-09 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
He absolutely can't help the way he shifts just slightly to meet Horatio's lips with his. It helps. It's got him a little (happily) breathless when he speaks again.

"--Yeah--?"

It's part encouragement, part gentle consent.
whisted: ([t] hms renown)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-09 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
"--a l-lot of it was-- this."

Kissing is familiar now, in this dark little cell. His hands stay in place as he lingers against a few soft kisses.

His breath is shaky as anything when he pulls back to trail his lips over Archie's cheek and jaw instead. "And... and i-imagining what you.. would taste like. If I could-- kiss e-every inch of you."
jollyboat: (my love)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-09 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
That earns a pleased little tremble in his breath; his fingers briefly squeezing tighter.

"'ve-- wondered about that, too," he murmurs softly.
whisted: ([t] happy return)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-09 01:58 pm (UTC)(link)
"R-Really, Archie?"

This is a good place to start, then. Horatio can't help being careful as he drags his lips across Archie's neck, but it's thrilling to know they've both been imagining it.
jollyboat: (bright smiles)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-11 02:34 pm (UTC)(link)
A contented sigh as he lets his head shift to let Horatio have better access.

"Really, 'ratio," he murmurs, obvious contentment in his voice.
whisted: ([t] hms indefatigable)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-12 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
They're still in prison. They're still farther from home than they've ever properly been.

Horatio can't help feeling, all the same, that he'd give anything in the world just to feel Archie's pleased sigh vibrating up against his lips just like this--that he wouldn't stay here the rest of his life for just another second of it.

"And..." Another few kisses will help. Another delicate dip of his lips against Archie's throat will help. "...a-and about... touching you. Touching..."

His fingers twitch but barely manage to move from Archie's hips.

"...t-touching all of you."
jollyboat: (you are sunlight)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-12 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh."

It's definitely a happy sound, if a somewhat surprised one. That has Archie's fingers drifting to squeeze lightly at Horatio's waist.

"I-- want you to." A careful shift of his head to press a light kiss against Horatio without dislodging him from the comfortable place against his neck, "I've-- wanted you to. 'nd to-- do the same back."
whisted: ([t] hms renown)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-12 11:47 am (UTC)(link)
His heart leaps pleasantly to his throat. His lips stutter against Archie's throat, breath drawn in shakily.

Dreaming is one thing; being here is entirely something else.

"A-Archie..."

His fingers shift carefully, ghosting up over Archie's ribs. Moving in the other direction feels as terrifying as it is thrilling.

"You... You do?"
jollyboat: (bright smiles)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-12 03:56 pm (UTC)(link)
"Mmhm."

And there's the softest little laugh and squirming, as Horatio's fingers drift. It's nice, to be able to laugh in this cell. To be able to laugh while drifting towards what they are.

"Maybe not-- doing quite everything, yet." He's not ready for that, and he imagines Horatio isn't, either, "But-- I want you. We can--- There's some things we-- can do."
whisted: ([t] hms retribution)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-12 04:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Tension flickers through his shoulders all at once. His fingers stay delicately in place, but his lips press firm together as he pulls his head back from Archie's neck.

"You're-- sure?"

Could either of them really be? Could Archie truly be?
jollyboat: (i am nothing)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-14 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
One hand shifts from Horatio's waist to brush lightly, soothingly, at the other man's shoulder.

"I am, 'f-- you are," he says softly, "Just-- we'll go slow, nn?"
whisted: ([t] hms renown)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-15 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
"R-Right."

They could move slowly. He could keep talking. They could find their way through the panic sitting in each of their guts to something that might begin to feel right--to feel like theirs.

His fingers tremble as they slide down to Archie's hips again, breath still uncertain. "Slow."
jollyboat: (shadow and sorrow)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-15 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
"Hey."

His voice is soft as he shifts very carefully to press a light kiss against Horatio's cheek.

"You should be-- sure, too, mm? 's not-- just about me."
whisted: ([t] lieutenant bush)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-16 02:36 am (UTC)(link)
That winds him slightly for a moment. His fingers squeeze a little more firmly at Archie's hips as he nods.

"It's-- a bit about you, though."

The thoughts are a little easier when they're whispered out close to Archie's lips. The nerves are a little less when he can practically feel Archie's smile.

"This is-- I want this with-- you."
jollyboat: (he is the sun)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-16 03:09 pm (UTC)(link)
A quiet, pleased nod.

"And I-- want it with you, too." Which is important to affirm, "So as-- long as you're-- sure about what we do, mm? We can-- keep checking in, maybe."
whisted: ([t] flying colours)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-19 03:03 pm (UTC)(link)
It isn't how this usually goes. It isn't how he's ever fallen into this sort of thing with anyone else in the world.

Of course it's better--safer, happier, more--with Archie.

"Checking in?"
jollyboat: (memory of warmth)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-19 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"Mmhm."

A brief, affectionate bump of noses.

"Like-- how you've been doing." How they've both been, really, "Th'-- asking. Making sure, y'know?"
whisted: ([t] hms renown)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-20 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
"...right."

They can keep doing this. They can keep fumbling exactly like this. If Archie's happy enough, they'll find their way.

"Can... Can I touch...?"
jollyboat: (bright smiles)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-20 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
He's nodding before he even processes properly. He follows up quickly with actually speaking, like they both need.

"W-Where'd y'like?"

He's already blushing at the thought.
whisted: ([t] hms indefatigable)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-20 12:45 pm (UTC)(link)
He can't say it out loud. He can barely think it without his cheeks going painfully scarlet in the semi-darkness.

One hand slips cautiously from Archie's hip along the top of his trousers, hesitant and questioning.
jollyboat: (you are sunlight)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-20 02:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"O-oh."

It was expected, yes, but that still definitely has his cheeks heating up. Horatio can likely feel it, this close. Archie's fingers start to drift from Horatio's shoulders and waist towards his hips as he nods.

"Y-yes, please."
whisted: ([t] happy return)

[personal profile] whisted 2017-04-24 12:38 pm (UTC)(link)
"O-Okay."

They can do this. They can enjoy this. They can make this their own special thing and knock away some of the ghosts trying to claw their way into this objectively wonderful moment.

His lips fumble gently against Archie's cheek. His fingers begin properly squirming to get into the fabric of the other young man's pants. "If... If you need me t'... stop, Archie..."
jollyboat: (bright smiles)

[personal profile] jollyboat 2017-04-24 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
"I know, 'ratio. I'll tell you."

But right now, despite how much even the beginnings of touch are making him flush, he's leaning into the touch. He's pressing a kiss against Horatio's cheek and squeezing at his hips.

"I trust you."
panzersoldat: (default)

Reinhardt Wilhelm | Overwatch | OTA

[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-03-31 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ Baggage ranging from his age to his size but can also be the supportive one ]